The Shrinking Man is absolutely ecstatic to announce the departure of 14st-something man, and equally proud to announce the arrival of 13st-something man. Indeed I am 🙂 Weigh-In number 53 has just been completed, and a whopping -4 brings me to 13st 13lb (195lb/88.6kg) and puts my total weight-loss to date as 4st 5lb (61lb/27.76kg) which represents a grand total of 24% of my starting weight. To incorrectly and inappropriately quote Tony Hancock, that surely has to be more than a leg-worth!
I’m now a 13st-something man for the first time in a very long time, and that really feels fantastic. This has been a long time coming – the last half a stone has taken me over three months to shift, so I’m feeling chuffed to bits that I haven’t given up, binged, built and then eaten a model of the Close Encounters mountain out of midget gems (mashed potato is so last-millennium) and generally let all my good work so far go to waste. Because that’s exactly what I’d have done in the past! Well perhaps not exactly, but you know what I mean…
The odd/great/intriguing thing about this sudden leap in the right direction, is that it was totally predictable, and to be totally honest, I could have done it at any point in the last few months. All I’ve changed is that I’ve gone back to controlling my eating a little more closely than I have been in recent weeks and months, coming in on or under my points total each day (as opposed to coming in over, or really over my points total each day) and suddenly everything clicks back in to place again. I have still snacked on occasions, but it hasn’t been the norm, and I haven’t done it if it would take me over my points. I have still had junk food on occasions, but again I’ve one it within my points, and I’ve made a conscious point of not snacking if I’ve had, or am planning to have junk food. A Burger King and a Fish and Chips this week. And a few subways for lunch too! Diet? What diet?
I’ve been doing this too long now to not be aware that this could all stall again this week. A big loss for me is generally followed by an STS or a small gain, so I’m not getting carried away here, but this is a really positive reminder of the mechanics of this whole thing. I think it goes like this:
- If you stay within your points, then you’ll lose weight
- If you don’t, then you won’t.
Tough system huh? Not sure if I’ll ever really be able to get my head round something that complex 😉
A few other positive things from this week. I had someone who I know to chat to but who I don’t see very often fail to recognise me yesterday, which was pretty cool. Also, I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I’d bought some Large Gap tops that were a bit big, and that against my Wife’s advice (as they were certainly a little snug), I decided to change them for Medium Gap tops. Well yesterday I wore one, and she didn’t notice! That was a genuinely pleasant experience, because I appear to have a better handle on my size at the moment than she does, which is quite remarkable because I’m usually rubbish at that, particularly in relation to clothes.
When I’m doing it right, it does all feel very different. There’s a lightness in my body as a whole that just feels ‘right’ when I’m eating the right amount for me. At times I’ve let it go too far the other way, and have ended up feeling too hungry and that doesn’t feel nice. A little bit of hunger in the run up to food can feel really pleasant, but not for too long. I’ve also eaten too much at times this week, and that doesn’t feel nice either – horribly stuffed and unpleasant, even though the old me wouldn’t even have registered what I’m eating as a snack, let alone as being too much!
The interesting thing for me at the moment is that I’m learning more about how I eat, and I’m really becoming aware of some things that I will need to work on to keep this weight off in the long-term. First of all, I eat too quickly. Almost always. That’s not good for a number of reasons – first of all, it means that I don’t actually enjoy my food very much, and secondly, it makes it easier to eat rubbish, because I’m not taking the time to really taste the difference between great and rubbish foods. Secondly, I still have (and perhaps always will have) a tendency to binge, it’s just that these days I tend to binge on healthier things. For lunch one day this week, I had a Subway Melt (disturbingly delicious, in the sense that it feels like there’s something put into it that makes me really, really want another one) followed by a whole punnet of strawberries and a whole punnet of cherries. I didn’t eat all the fruit because I was hungry, and after about half of it, I wasn’t even enjoying it any more. Yet I still ate it. What’s that all about then?
For now, let’s just say “who cares! I’m a 13st something man again, and that’s fantastic” and we’ll come back to it later, but there’s definitely some stuff to think about in there.
Have a great week.
The Shrinking Man