Week 47 weigh-in has been completed, and I’m relieved to only report a +2. It’s disappointing in some ways, because that’s only the second time that I’ve gained two weeks in a row since starting this, and the other one was the period that we don’t talk about called Christmas. In reality though, I’ve not eaten well this week, so it could have been much worse.
It’s time to take stock a little bit, as it feels like I’m in a bit of a rut at the moment. I promised last week that I wouldn’t indulge in any self-flagellation over Easter, so I’ll need to be careful how I word this, but it’s safe to say that the week didn’t start well. Delighted as I was to receive a gorgeous Hotel Chocolat £25 Easter egg, I ate the whole thing in two days, which did make the whole WW points thing a little bit of a challenge for the rest of the week. The egg itself equated to about 60 points, which is about a day and a half’s worth of normal eating. I enjoyed it, although I definitely ate it too quickly – I do not seem to have a “let’s just have a little bit” mode for situations like this at the moment. The positive thing was that on both days when I ate the egg, I felt unpleasantly full afterwards, which I think is a good sign, as I don’t think I would have noticed anything this time last year.
I think perhaps the speed at which I eat generally is something that I need to look at, as by the time I’ve noticed that I’m feeling full, I’m already really stuffed because of the pace of it all. There’s something to play with there I think…
What I need to come to terms with properly is that things like Easter indulgences are fine – they just need to be factored in, and it’s the factoring them in that I need to get better at. In general I didn’t respond too badly too it – I’ve upped the exercise and swum three times this week, which was the right thing to do. There were other areas where I didn’t do as well. I sat and watched a film with my Wife on Easter Sunday and managed to devour three quarters of a large bag of toffee popcorn. That’s not good. Well it was, but you know what I mean. I’ve also snacked when I wasn’t hungry, even though I was up against it in terms of points.
It’s quite difficult to feel satisfied with my general progress at the moment – things are still generally moving in the right direction, but with so many backward and forward steps that it’s so very, very slow. I’m actually just 8lb lighter than I was before Christmas, and it really feels like a bit of a slog at the moment. If you factor in the 10lb that I put on over Christmas, then I’ve lost 18lb since January, which feels slightly better, but not much. I still haven’t quite forgiven myself for Christmas I don’t think.
What I appear to be very good at is keeping my weight at between 14 and 14.5 stone, which is probably something to be celebrated, particularly when you consider that a year ago I would have been proving myself to be very good at increasing my weight gradually from 18st 4lb. It’s less of a cause for celebration when you want to keep on shrinking though. Part of me is thinking that perhaps I’ve reached my ideal weight already, and that I’m destined to be this lumpy sort of guy forever. Most of me knows that’s complete rubbish though, so I’m not paying attention to me on that 😉
The bottom line is this – if I keep doing what I’m doing now, then I’ll continue to get smaller for a fair while longer. It might be slow, but it IS still going in the right direction, and that’s really all that’s important here. I guess I’m starting to come up against the ‘real-life’ stuff that will happen when I get to whatever weight I decide that I want to be in the end – how I eat will determine what weight I end up at. Nothing more complicated than that.
The big lessons for me this week are that:
- I need to pay more attention while I’m eating, and eat slower
- I need to make better decisions after something like an Easter blow-out
Have a good week.