Frankly feeling a little bemused…

Sometimes it’s difficult to know whether to laugh or cry.  Really it is.  I’m laughing at the moment, but a little bit of me feels like crying at just how bizarre this whole journey is at times.

Week 27 weigh-in just completed, and I’ve gained a couple of pounds.  In the overall scheme of things I know that means nothing, but it’s still never nice to gain weight.  What makes it particularly galling is that this week I really thought that I’d cracked the new program.  I’ve been struggling with the new ProPoints approach since it was launched, but this week I thought that I’d settled into a way of working the additional weekly allowance points that made it work.  And then I go and gain weight.  Doh!

I’m not going to get too cross about it – I still think I’m doing the right things, and that I’m moving in the right direction, but right now progress is soooooo slow.  Actually it’s pretty much ground to a halt right now – over the past four weeks my weight has gone from 15st 2lb to – wait for it – 15st 2lb.  Something is clearly not right, so I’m going to need to stop and take stock for a bit I guess.  Perhaps I’m under-estimating what I’m eating, or over-estimating the exercise that I’m doing.  I know that I’m doing less exercise than I was at the start, which is mainly a work thing, but that’s been the case for a few months anyway.

There are certainly some elements of the new WW approach that I’m struggling with, but there’s no reason why I can’t either get used to them or work around them, so it’s not as if the whole concept doesn’t work any more.  That means that it must be down to how I’m doing it, so I’m just going to have to knuckle down a bit, go back to the basics and make sure that I’m doing things right.

I really am a little surprised with this result to be honest, as I was feeling physically lighter and leaner, particularly over the last couple of days.  I did go out last night and drank a lot of alcohol free beer, which means I do feel quite bloated this morning, so perhaps it’s a just a blip and a reaction to that anyway.

The most positive thing this week was tied up with going out last night – I met up with some old school friends who I saw for the first time in 20 years a few months ago when I was 44lb or so heavier.  Everyone noticed that I’d lost a lot of weight, and I felt really, really good about myself.

I feel like crap now of course, but I’ll get over that.  Probably.

It’s like this.  I have a choice here.  I can let this get me down and let it divert me from where I want to go, or I can let this spur me on to do it better.

I like better.

Have a good week.

The Shrinking Man

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