First of all, I had a bit of a scare at the gym. I was on the treadmill, and I was pushing myself quite hard. It’s probably worth noting here, that this is all relative – what I mean is that I was alternating between walking pretty quickly and jogging slightly quicker, but believe me, that IS pushing myself quite hard. Anyway, I was jogging for longer than I usually manage, and started to get a very tight feeling across the left hand side of my chest. It didn’t hurt, but it didn’t feel good, and I slowed down quite a lot to see what happened. It stopped once I’d calmed down, and I was able to carry on with the rest of my workout, but it shook me up a bit.
I went to see the doctor this morning, just to talk about it, and he’s booked me in for some blood tests, but he’s not overly concerned. Or at least I hope he’s not, as the blood tests aren’t for ten days or so. The morbid side of me is slightly amused at the epitaph that sentence would turn into if he’s called this very, very wrong…;-)
It made me think about the way I’m approaching the exercise. So far, I’ve been pushing myself harder and harder each time I go, and I think I need to take a step back and take things a little easier for a while. I’ve been loving feeling myself getting stronger and fitter with each week, and at times I’ve felt absolutely fantastic, but I think I need to acknowledge that I’m not 20 anymore. Not that I was all that active at 20, but you know what I mean. Anyway, I think I need to be happy with exercising at the same level for a while and take things a little slower. What I’m doing now is a massive step up from what I was doing a month ago, so I don’t have to keep pushing further and further. Not just yet anyway…
The other thing I wanted to talk about was an interesting revelation that I’ve had. This is another one of those that I’m sure the thin world already knows perfectly well, but it jumped out at me as something quite interesting.
Here it goes.
Crap food doesn’t fill you up.
My standard response to feeling a bit peckish when it’s not a traditional mealtime is to grab a snack of some sort. A bag of crisps, or a biscuit or something relatively unsubstantial and unhealthy. I’m a little more aware of feelings of hunger at the moment, and I’ve noticed that if I’m actually feeling hungry and I have some sort of snack, I’m still usually feeling hungry afterwards. That means that I usually end up eating something sensible and more filling afterwards anyway. If I do it the other way around, and eat the healthy, filling thing first, then the hunger goes.
There are two specific outcomes to taking the former route, one for my current shrinking life, and one for my former non-shrinking life. In my current shrinking life, that means that I end up using points that I didn’t need to use, and meaning that I need to cut back somewhere else in the day to stay within my daily allowance. In my former non-shrinking life, it would mean that I’d eat more and get fatter. Hence the non-shrinking 🙂
This concept of there being consequences to my eating choices is still an interesting one for me. I can eat whatever I want, but if I eat something that’s heavy in points (or calories/saturated fat in a non-WW world) at one meal, then unless I cut back somewhere else as a result, then I’m going to store those extra calories as fat, and I’ll put on weight. It’s horribly straightforward when you look at it in those terms isn’t it?
Shall I tell you the truly big thing that’s going round my head right now? This journey is not about losing weight. Let me repeat that. THIS JOURNEY IS NOT ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT! It’s about learning how to eat sensibly. When I do that, then the weight will come off anyway. I’ve proved time and again that it doesn’t work the other way around. If you focus on losing weight, you don’t necessarily learn to eat sensibly. That means that as soon as you stop actively trying to lose weight, you put the weight back on again.
The Shrinking Man should really be called The Learning To Eat Sensibly Man, but it doesn’t sound anywhere near as good, so I’ll stick with the original idea 🙂
The Shrinking Man