I started this journey on Monday 7th June at about 6pm. I could (or perhaps even should) have waited and started the weight watchers thing the next day, but I’m an impulsive kind of guy, so I decided to just dive straight in. One of the cornerstones of the Weight Watchers system is to record the Weight Watchers Points values for everything that you eat, and I decided to record everything that I’d eaten that day so far, even though I didn’t start till 6pm that day.
What I expected to be a fairly straightforward exercise turned out to be both challenging and interesting. I drew up a list of what I’d eaten that day fairly easily, but found myself repeatedly remembering things that I’d left off the list over the next few hours. I was genuinely surprised at how much I’d eaten, and particularly at how quickly I’d managed to erase a lot of it from my memory. It might sound daft that a fat bloke is surprised to find out that he eats a lot, but it really was quite a shock.
Delusion can set up home in the mind of the fat bloke. In the past I’ve managed to convince myself that I wasn’t really fat because I ate too much, but rather it was because of my genes, my glands, or just some other external reason that wasn’t anything to do with me. I knew that at times I ate a lot, but it wasn’t all that often. I knew that most of the time, I probably ate more than a ‘normal’ person, but not all that much more. That couldn’t be enough to explain the huge difference between my weight and that of the non-fat-bloke population. It might sound incredible, but it was only very recently (and I’m talking about the last few months here) that I realised, in a blinding moment of revelation, that calories are cumulative. Even if I ate just 10 calories a day more than a thin bloke, that would add up, so that at the end of the first week, I’d have eaten 70 more calories. At the end of the month, I’d have eaten 300 or so more calories, and at the end of the year, that would be more than three and a half thousand. And that’s just with 10 calories.
If you’re a thin bloke, then I’d guess this probably isn’t news to you, but I’d be fairly certain that there’s a fairly large number of fat blokes out there who have never grasped that simple truth. It’s a little strange, because I like to think that I’m a fairly intelligent guy, but the blinding truth behind that revelation really never hit me until recently. Anyway, that revelation, when combined with how unaware I was of what I was eating, really made me think.
From that day on, I’ve been accurately recording everything that I eat or drink, which I believe has had a strong impact on how much and what I’ve eaten. I’m actually enjoying doing it at the moment, and as a result I’m making educated food choices.
Anyway, that’s all for now.
The Shrinking Man